I was thinking of putting together my recent posts and this one. kaso feeling ko sobrang haba nya at pati ako tatamarin basahin. And these were two precious experiences, so they deserve their own spotlight. :)
Here goes..
Einstein once said that how on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics, so important a biological phenomenon as first love?
Every heartbreak is a valuable lesson. So, what makes your first heartbreak significant to all? I just can't exactly put into words what I feel about the fact that its something special that will it last forever, because you learn and mature from it. Your very first disappointment. Bitter lang ba? Nope.
I have heard some extreme and most heartbreaking stories. Eh syempre i-share ko sya sa inyo. The beautiful feeling of first love has been destroyed in my very own eyes as I watched the girl on one of my favorite couples break her fragile and innocent heart.
They were dating since the day began. They were each other's firsts. They have plans on marrying each other. They were dating for five years by the way. I heard plans from the guy that he wanted to marry my friend too. It just showed me how deeply they are devoted to each other and what a great feeling it was to be inlove in such a pure way. A few weeks later though, she found out that her boyfriend sort of 'backing out' on the plan because his parents wouldn't approve of her. She couldn't believe that years of devotion, passion and love could just be taken away because she did not get one single approval. So, they broke up. Weeks followed, she was almost physically unable to face the world out of her own grief and yes, it was heartbreaking to just watch one great love dying down.
Well. I have my own version of my first ever heartbreak. As in damang dama na heart break. Prior to my former blog, obviously that one great love is AN ANCIENT HISTORY, meaning.. IT ENDED. It was an eight-year old memory but gaaaad. it was one of hell of a pain. I'm not over reacting naman. Realistically speaking, in my part, I can still feel the pain of it. You felt that it was the worst feeling in the world, literally, at that time. You felt that you are breathing but not breathing at the same time. Your heart beat so fast and you feel it is breaking into two. There is a time pa, na sobrang emote ko.. magwawalis lang ako sa bahay, kumkrayola ako. EH DALA NG KABATAAN. It was hard, yes. Yung mga kakilala ko who eventually knew what happened they have the same thing over and over again that always burst me to tears, "Sayang naman." But as I look back and recall those memories, funny but I felt proud. Proud that I overcome those painful experiences and made me what I am today. Strong. :)
How many of us have learnt the lesson in our first heartbreak?
The remarkable and that negative experience taught us one thing. To experience falling in love truly for the first time. However, we must face the fact that goodness of it does not lasts forver.
It's not wrong to be preoccupied by your thoughts of pag-eemote along your bintana or when you're on a bus because you are young! It doesn't matter if you're one of those smart or yung mga nakanta ng stupid love dyan sa kanto. It's NORMAL! Don't worry. You will be fine. You haven't lost your sense of direction. You are just in a state of mental numbness because your ego was shattered into pieces. At this age, that’s something you can recover from by listening to shitty music for a month. Take it from Taylor Swift. :)
Seriously, no that you all want to hear it, but being heart broken right now might be the best thing for us. Heartbreak sucks and all, YES. But it's better to learn that negative experience now at least you have a plenty of time to back up. You can't do it when you have a life to consider.
Trust me, there is someone out there who is experiencing those heartbreaks. It might be worst. So, congratulations on your first heartbreak! :D
