CELEBRATING FIRST DAYS.

first day of school. 3rd year, 1st semester.
with 3B couples plus mac mac.

since first time mag-aya ni mac mac maggala, go agad! no second thoughts!
spent 200 pesos worth of tokens. sorry, bata eh. hahaha.

FOR HIM.

dear baby,

i just need to talk to you since mommy miss you so much. sorry if i don't have the time to be there especially during your birthdays. i need someone to talk to. i wish you were here.

natatandaan mo ba baby nung unang nalaman nila mommy na you were there? sorry for the reaction pero napaaga ka, but were thankful na you came. daddy even want you under his name diba? he was touching you everyday. and feeling your nudge. you want pizzas and pastas that time kaya lagi tayong nasa greenwich nun. and for some months, some people notices you na and excited to see you came. sorry if i don't give you the chance to see the world. i regretted that baby. you know that. i prayed nga diba na we can do it together. and you were fighting also.

mom have her own life now. and daddy also. we wish din na you will be happy about our decisions. sana andito ka baby. ikaw na lang yung natitira saken. ikaw na lang. guide me lagi baby ha? don't let mommy made those wrong decisions again.

i miss you. and i love you always.

love, mommy

DEPRESSED.

so one thing i do when i'm depressed. sleep. for like an hour or half. napuputol. ewan ko kung bakit. recently, i've been in this roller coaster feeling with someone whom i'm romantically involved. roller coaster ride kasi hindi ako sure kung siya ba talaga ang gusto ko, o siya na ba talaga ang pang-forever ek ek ko. i know it's like too early for realizations na ganun, pero kasi.. i've been through worst. ayoko ng maulit un. and i promised to myself na hindi na mauulit un. weird and self-centered but i guess it gives me the realization of one realistic love.

so the depression starts, and i can't figure it out yet where i will be WILLING to be whole again. i've been through this, pero wala akong kadala-dala. i guess i'm a depression magnet. (what a term.)

yung feeling na you can't breathe kasi yung pain galing sa lungs mo. (aken na description to. walang pakielamanan.) and the feeling na once you stare at somethimg, you will be staring at it for hours. and you want to eat (kasama talaga to.) tapos you want to get drunk. and lastly, you want to blogged it out.

i texted like a dozen of my friends. and guess what they all said..

"sa sunday, manuod tayo ng new moon. tanggal yang depression mo for sure."

that's why i love them.

i was never the makwento one in terms of this field of interest. i was more of the adviser. the word of wisdom friend. the one that you can lean on, pag may load. so i believe that they believe na bibihira ako masaktan. i know daw kasi the in and outs of the relationship, but they don't know that the more practical a person may sound, the less practical this person in her/his relationship. believe me. i can prove it.

so i guess, this is the story for now. next chapter na lang ulit.

NAYN'S 19TH BDAY.

with my nhengsz <3

pinoy henyo trip.
the bar.
junk food.
paranormal activity/the ugly truth
marlboro.

equals

total night for us!

PUSS ON THE BOOTS.

PUSS ON THE BOOTS.

meet jasper and alice.
the new member of the family.
c/o timmy ramos.

it's good naman pala to have a cat. malambing sila and sobrang nakakatuwa. hahaha.

love em!