still.

i can't believe what really happened last night. yes. it's over. done. and i guess there's no turning back. i wanted to stay. but he's not. since last night, i always hear myself saying, ok lang yan. it's for the best, really. kaya mu yan. and a lot of encouragements and random things. useless to say it cause my heart invades my thoughts. masakit. i don't like breakups. i don't like being in a relationship to be specific. 4 years was gone. 4 years just, collapsed. i though were strong. cause he used told me that. and just for one single low/immature decision, it just end.

when i woke up this morning, guess what was my first thought? wala na kami. a very good way to start a day. yes. and my mood was really much affected. most of the time, i'm irritated. don't want to talk to anyone. i wanted to be alone. but, i want to do a lot of things. dati kasi, i don't have time with my friends cause my time is like nahahati. with him. and with them. so i have to balanced it parang walang maagrabyado. he's not that understanding ya' know. when it comes to time, for us, gusto nia fix lahat. pag day nia, no extras. or else, world war. time flew so fast.

as i said, it's for the best.
it will passed by.
and probably, i should be healed. and moved on.
maybe not so fast.
but im sure, i will be.

even husband and wife seperates, anu pa kaya ang committed lang.
pampalubag-loob.
there's a lot of things i wanted to say to him, personally.
but i tried to pick myself from pieces first.

so God. Let me move on.