i didn't mean to scare you guys, but.. I HATE THIS! damn. for everyone's sake, IT'S CHRISTMAS. hay!

petition for NO TWILIGHT FILIPINO VERSION. click it.
Say no to Twilight, Filipino Version!

thank you.

on the other hand, i went out with my girls today, 12.23.08, celebrating christmas! it was super fun, as always, kasama namin ung 2 babies. i can't tell you how happy and sooo tiring this day was, well yesterday, technically =)

i miss them always.

the details.

the rendezvous time was 1 pm at festival mall. stupid it is kasi walang napag-usapan kung san banda sa festival, so hanapan ang mode namin. haha. nauna si nayn, diane, dhot, sarah & edrei dun, then me, then nikki, last na si carla tsaka ayla. the menu?

bucket meal at KFC
carbonara at RED RIBBON
smores cake at RED RIBBON
coke zero

4 pm na kami nakaalis sa festi dahil sa simpleng dahilan na isa isa namin siyang binili, ayaw kasi namin maghiwa-hiwalay. hahaha. we first bought the bucket meal at the same the coke at shopwise. then, carbonara at ribbon's. and then, we waited for momi carla kasi sagot niya ung cake. hehehe. then off we go to candy's house.

pagdating namin dun, tulog si edrei. at dahil mga dead hunger kami, inupakan na namin ung mga dala namin. tinira namin ung cake, excuse me. hahaha. pagkatapos nun, chismis time, which is very unusual dahil konting oras lang ang aming nagugol. haha. then, MAKE UP TIME! may santacruzan nga daw sabi ni demmie. haha.
naging center of attraction namin ung dalawang baby, pinagkikiss namin. haha! bad. and pinagsasayaw. haha. aun.

it was super fun! full of laughters talaga. and pang-aasar sa isa't isa.

we got home by 7. pero nagsimba kami sa mary for simbang gabi. actually 4 na lang kami nun, c dhot, ako, nayn and diane. aun!

whatta day. sana laging ganto =)

BAD NEWS! for me!
ABS-CBN has bought the rights to make a tv version of the hit vampire novel "Twilight" by Stephenie Meyer, it is about a girl named Isabella Swan who fell in love with a vampire named Edward Cullen, the taping is

set to start next year in Baguio, Bugarin in Tanay Rizal Province, Bukidnon and Tagaytay, This will be one of the biggest production ABS-CBN will make, the budget for this TV Series is about more than a million, which is big for a tv series. this is said to be directed by the award winning director Cathy Garcia Molina.

Twilight Philippine Version Cast:

(Pending) as Edward Cullen
Shaina Magdayao as Isabella Swan
Valeen Montenegro as Alice Cullen
Gabby Concepcion as Dr. Carlisle Cullen
Luis Manzano as Emmett Cullen
Al Tantay as Charlie Swan
Yayo Aguila as Renee Dwyer
Fred Payawan as Jacob Black
Carlos Agassi as James
Chin Chin Gutierrez as Esme Cullen
Karylle as Rosalie Hale
Joross Gamboa as Jasper Hale
Jessy Mendiola as Jessica Stanley
Empress Schuck as Angela Weber
Brad Murdoch as Laurent
Nikki Bacolod as Victoria
Aaron Villaflor as Mike Newton

ABS-CBN said theyre thinking of Rafael Rosell, Diether Ocampo, or Jake Cuenca to portray the role of Edward Cullen.

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violent reactions.
bakit naman. ayoko! ayoko talaga! gus2 q ng mamatay. auq! sana malugi ang abs-cbn!
nasira ang araw ko, promise!

sana hindi pa yan final.

new new new!

nothing much too say. hay. nakakainip naman. walang magawa. btw, i just came home from leng's bday/duyduy's binyag. wala mxadong pic kasi busy kami sa pagkain lagi. but, i have one on my phone. i'll upload it later na lang =)

aun, plans. hmmm.. sana sa 23 e, xmas party naming nhengsz. pero sad to say, parang hindi matutuloy. haha! wala lang. aun. then 25, xmas day! oh my. 9 ang inaanak ko! damn.

xenn adrian
dylan nichelle
laurence glenn
erilla meira
aikee
justin.. sullivan =)
abudeng
aaliyah
girl chuaquico
boy chuaquico

ai shet. 10 pala. hahah! ahm, sa mga mag-aanak pa. wag niu na ko kunin na ninang ha? thank you.

and sa 27, the traditional, laguna trip. ang chismis e, may kasama na qng babae. c nayn at c dhot =) sana, sumama sila ng tunay. *excited*

nagugutom na q.

new =)

breaking dawn, HARD COVER! lovin' it. sarap naman hawakan lagi e. at ulit uliting basahin! hindi naman halata sa pic na, love na love q xa. at.. sa ate ko pala yan. inangkin e nuh? since siya ang may karapatang gumastos ng gumastos dahil siya ang nagttrabaho, nakabili siya. nag-iisa na nga lang daw yan sa fully-booked sa taguig, aun. kahit walang cover na plastic, binili nia na talaga! kaysa maunahan pa siya! =)



it's not the original ray-ban (5k! what the fcuk!), so instead.. i found an imitation. 300 is waaaay good than 5k! good huh? =)

so, our classes is over. AS IN OVER!! and i conclude na mas makakapag-blog na q ngaun kaysa dati. sana! o'my. christmas na in 8 days! dami kong inaanak so, medyo hirap muna q ngaun.

better continue later, i have chores to do =) toodles!

ima red head na :)
im happy with it naman. for a change, and to look more mature and have a somewhat strong side. i like it. do you like it?
(actually, kinda inspired from bella's hair. haha. im her #1 impersonator. )

shot from jenjen's cam. i'm her first model sa bagong bagong dslr niya. haha. lucky her.

my plans for this week:
cathy's party
and laguna daaaaays... which is a major complication cause..
IT'S ON THE SAME DAY!

better patch things up before it gets worst. may ganun!

and..

MARKY CIELO is dead.
sad.
condolences to her family,
im not a fan but i like him.

credit for doma. nice nice nung drawing nia diba? cute. anime' version of 2B! :)
well, that's me. with sparkling hair daw. pede naman na skin na lang para vampire diba? hehe. everytime daw kasi na nakikita nia ko, nag-sparkle daw ung hair ko. cute cute talaga.

today.
i attended the college day/night dun sa municipal hall namin. it was fun din naman kasi andun lahat ng colleges dito sa muntinlupa. gone home early kasi it started to pour. tsaka kumain lang talaga ko. haha. juice and bread. haha. sabay kami ni beng umuwi and nilibre nia ko, wow. artista na e. hehe.

and maybe tomorrow, hindi ako pumasok ng pe namin. just for a simple reason na.. NAKAKATAMAD. and volleyball? hay.

i'm kind of "moved on" na sa twilight. nabawasan na ung pagkkwento ko sa knya. and, minsan hindi ko na nga siya naalala. at all. and.. i think it's good. haha!

i can't cope up with twilight. damn. it is definitely a bad thing. haha.

i just want to greet a few people who will be celebrating, or should i say celebrating their birthday today!!

ake. (cousin)
james. (a very close friend)
and kaye (my batchmate/friend)

happy birthday guys!

well, i started the month very.. happy. and, contented and.. a lot of gladness in my heart. haha. remember that i just came from break up, super recently. we're ok na. as in friends. no hard feelings na. that's nice diba? i decided to talk to him about this, ok thing, cause we came at the same group of friends. so i thought na kung mag-iiwasan kami, nakakahiya naman dun sa mga tao sa paligid. so, we talked a lot of stuff. and set aside the break-up and go on as friends. yeah. weirdness. haha. but i'm happy about it. yes, and i'm contented.

so.. yun lang! :)

seems like it's the only thing i'm good at.

so yes, i watched twilight, for the third time. this time, last full show ang trip. haha. im with my mom. i know it's bad, pero i can't help it. above was a very risky thing i did. haha. i took a snap while watching the film. i super love the crowd. clap kung clap pag nakakakilig. haha. at least, hindi sila killjoy. i want to watch it again. and again. and again. and again. haha!

i super can't wait for the next sequel. merging of the two books sounded soooo fun!

i did want to talk about twilight kahit na hindi ako kontento sa film. ahaha. yah. baliw.

Twilight doesn’t hit theaters until next Friday, and Summit Entertainment has already aquired the rights to the next three novels in Stephenie Meyer’s vampire romance series. According to THR, Twilight scribe Melissa Rosenberg has signed on to pen the next two screenplays, based on the books New Moon (you can read the first chapter here) and Eclipse. A writer has not been hired to adapt the fourth book, Breaking Dawn.

The films themselves have yet to be officially greenlit, but I’m sure after the first film does monster business next week, it will only be a matter of time. Word is that Summit would like to shoot the next two films back to back, as they did with The Matrix sequels and Lord of the Rings trilogy.

while surfing for the latest news of twilight, i fell into a website who said those things above. i think it's a good choice of merging the two books, cause edward, majority of new moon, was absent. soo.. i guess it's a good thing :) and.. i think they were kind of in a hurry filming the remaining sequels cause of the actors are aging but not the vampires. hehe. good point. so.. aun.

today.i've gone out with two of my psychopath friends. mall hopping ang drama namin. but we made gala because of some reasons naman, and it's business! :)

and then afterwards, i came to see 4 of my best buddies (walang pic si lean tsaka jr) until now since highschool, and got.. a little bit serious talk. a bit lang but majority were a lot of laughs. it was always fun being with them. dami din napag-usapan and thank god, konti lang ung pahirap saken. LAKAS KO TALAGA SAU BENG. hindi mo ko binuro maxado sa hotseat. haha.

it was fun. at least, im spending time with my friends as often as i want diba?

still.

i can't believe what really happened last night. yes. it's over. done. and i guess there's no turning back. i wanted to stay. but he's not. since last night, i always hear myself saying, ok lang yan. it's for the best, really. kaya mu yan. and a lot of encouragements and random things. useless to say it cause my heart invades my thoughts. masakit. i don't like breakups. i don't like being in a relationship to be specific. 4 years was gone. 4 years just, collapsed. i though were strong. cause he used told me that. and just for one single low/immature decision, it just end.

when i woke up this morning, guess what was my first thought? wala na kami. a very good way to start a day. yes. and my mood was really much affected. most of the time, i'm irritated. don't want to talk to anyone. i wanted to be alone. but, i want to do a lot of things. dati kasi, i don't have time with my friends cause my time is like nahahati. with him. and with them. so i have to balanced it parang walang maagrabyado. he's not that understanding ya' know. when it comes to time, for us, gusto nia fix lahat. pag day nia, no extras. or else, world war. time flew so fast.

as i said, it's for the best.
it will passed by.
and probably, i should be healed. and moved on.
maybe not so fast.
but im sure, i will be.

even husband and wife seperates, anu pa kaya ang committed lang.
pampalubag-loob.
there's a lot of things i wanted to say to him, personally.
but i tried to pick myself from pieces first.

so God. Let me move on.

twilight.

there are 2 things I am positive of right now. first, the book was better than the movie. and second, I'm single.. since now.

me and ally saw the film this morning. sorry, i don't have any pictures. (the cable of my phone is misplaced, so bear with me.) the first time i saw it, since we watched it three times and single screening for each, i said.. "ok. good." then the second time, i started to questioned the script writers. kulang! as in kulang talaga! so these are the scenes or whatever you like to call them, which i wish were included:

- the i lied routine. i always imagine her saying that :)
- the snow moment. when the cullens are playing with the snow. i find it cute :) (page 43)
- the crash was so simple. they were supposed to be arguing right? i mean, it's kind of sweet when they are arguing.. haha.
- when edward invited bella for going to seattle. the whole inviting process! (page 87)
- this is my favorite moment, ever!
my head snapped up. i followed her gaze to see edward, smiling crookedly, staring at me from an empty table across the cafeteria from where he usually sat. once he'd caught my eye, he raised one hand and motioned with his index finger for me to join him. as i stared in disbelief, he winked.
OH MY EDWARD! wala sa movie. TSK!
- blood type. (page 102) this was supposed to be in the film. EDWARD. JEALOUS!
- dazzling :)
he tilted his head to one side and his eyes were curious. "i dazzle people?"
"you haven't noticed? do you think everybody gets their way so easily?"
he ignored my questions. "do i dazzle you?"
"frequently." i admitted.

this by far, were the chosen ones who are not in the film. frustrating! but the film was okay okay. some scenes are cute. especially when edward was officially introduced to charlie, the shotgun was a bit.. scary. ahaha. it's funny though. and.. the scene at the cullen house. edward's expressions were totally.. lovable! but overall, the movie is good. great.

second part, i know i've said this a lot of times before. and i guess, final na to. IT'S OVER. 4 years of i think true relationship was over. mutual decision. no harm done. and i guess, and wishing it over and over.. that it's for the best for both of us. for me, dominantly. i just want to thank a few people for keeping me calm and made me stop from crying. james and lean. and bff! wow. special mention. haha. thanks for the talk. badly needed it. and bff, sobrang napatawa mo ko. ganda ng timing mo.

it just proved me one thing. NOTHING IS PERMANENT. how badly you needed it and how eager of you to stay that one important event, it just go. and. leave you.

new life as of november 27, 2008 :)

twilight day.

don't know where to start. all i know is.. MANUNUOD AKO NG TWILIGHT MAMAYA!

just got this survey from zee to refresh my mind.

TEN HOW'S:

1. How did you get one of your scars? chicken pox.
2. How did you celebrate your last birthday? with my friends. closest friends.
3. How are you feeling at this moment? pg's :)
4. How did your night go last night? last night was good. everything went smoothly.
5. How did you do in high school? average.
6. How did you get the shirt you're wearing? kay ate ko nga to e.
7. How much money did you spend last month? haha. super gastos.
8. How old do you want to be when you get married? when the time is right.
9. How old will you be at your next birthday? 19. oh my.
10. How do you spell your name? Lady Arriane. only two people in my lifetime were strong enough to say it right. haha

NINE WHAT'S:

1. What is your mother's name? Ellinor.
2. What did you do last weekend? lean's and jr's bday celebration.
3. What is the most important part of your life? myself.
4. What would you rather be doing? sleeping cause i'm effin tired.
5. What did you last cry over? him. pero ok na ko :)
6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? calm down. and eat.
7. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other? a lot of patience and love.. in me :)
8. What are you worried about? none at the moment.
9. What did you have for breakfast? hindi ako nakapagbreakfast cause im late

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:

1. Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend? yes. vintage. ahaha.
2. Have you ever had your heart broken? naman. twice.
3. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? ahaha. i believe i do.
4. Have you ever been back-stabbed by a friend? yup. and that's a lesson learned.
5. Have you ever had sex on the beach? no. ahaha. i don't even like beaches.
6. Have you ever dated someone younger than you? currently :)
7. Have you ever read an entire book in one day? yes.
8. Have you ever sang in the shower? listening to music will be the best description.


SEVEN​ WHO’S​:​

1. Who was the last person you saw? ate.
2. Who was the last person you texted? diane. kulet.
3. Who was the last person you hung out with? ally and polwi.
4. Who was the last person to call you? sarah.
5. Who did you last hug? unan. hahaha.
6. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to? musni..
7. Who made you smile today? the thought of manunuod n ko ng twilight :)

SIX WHERE’S:

1. Where does your best friend live? they're all over the place.
2. Where do you go to school? PLMun.
3. Where is your favorite place to be? bed! :)
4. Where did you sleep last night? attic. ahaha!
5. Where did you first kiss your boyfriend? this is private. ahaha. lips agad!
6. Where's your cellphone right now? charging.


FIVE DO’S/​DOES:​

1. Do you like someone right now? more than like :)
2. Do you think anyone likes you? he should be!
3. Do you know all your friends' birthdays? yes.
4. Do you ever wish you were someone else? no.
5. Does the future scare you? no.


FOUR WHY’S:

1. Why did you get a friendster? communication :)
2. Why did your parents give you the name you have? kasi tinatamad silang mag-isip. at nung nakita nilang may napaka-bangong pulbo sila, boom. ARRIANE. tsk.
3. Why are you doing this survey? i want to sleep. baka effective na pampatulog.
4. Why are you crying? nagbabawas lang ng liquid :)

THREE IF’S:

1. If you could have one super power what would it be? be impossibly fast or can run through walls. cool.
2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you? and what life would i have?
change? nah. im contented na with what i have. changing it will just complicate things.
3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring one thing, what would you bring? a bag that can hold everything!


TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:

1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s? not a chance.
2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love? hmm. ahaha. yes?


ONE LAST QUESTION

1. Are you happy with your life right now? yes. im happy. im contented.

tingin ko naman effective ung survey dahil inaantok na ko. twilight na! see you in theaters fellow vampires :)

lurves.

there's just a couple of things I'm dying to see next week.

FIRST.
as obvious as ever..

TWILIGHT! :) 4 days more. oh my edward. di na nga ako makatulog e. hay!


SECOND.
PRISON BREAK season 4 episode 12.

malapit na ata sila matapos. so far, this season ung favorite ko. daming mushy moments dito e. grabe. and come to think of it, parang matatapos na siya nuh? just wondering bakit mababa ung ratings nila, e maganda naman, nakakatense kaya! haha. americans don't know how to appreciate true kinds of series. tsk. tsk.

"this is my plan." -michael scoffield

super intelligent! pero auq ng may something sa utak ko nuh! oooops! spoilers! ahaha.

if you don't have any idea about this PRISON BREAK, download the season 1! maadik ka talaga!!

forks tourist spot.

"Forks Community Hospital, recognizing the hospital's key role in the books, put up this sign reserving a parking space for Dr. Cullen, father of hero Edward. The sign is now another tourist attraction."

i find it extremely amazing, Dr. Carlisle Cullen, may parking lot talaga. ang reserved ha! ahaha.


9 days more! can't wait!

i just got my tarp!

overwhelmed.

i just sooo need to post this!

they are so damn perfect!
can't wait for the film!! 26! dumating ka na!!

pictures from vanity fair mag :)

back.

yes, im back :) hindi ko nga alam kung anu ang ikkwento ko.. parang wala nman. ayun, pasukan na. medyo magulo and toxic ung sched ko. earliest na ung 1030 am. ok din naman diba? kaso.. masyadong nakakatamad, so my dad gives his opinion na mag-part time daw muna ko. galing diba. gusto ko din naman, kaso baka mawalan ako ng time sa nhengsz. and sa special someone ko :) ahaha. aun, that was part of the plan.

im going out on friday sana kasi may TCP assembly-like sa fully booked, taguig. aun, la ako kasama. and.. may pasok nun! ahaha! i'll try my best na pumunta and gustong gusto ko talaga pumunta!

aun, that's all.

so many plans.

yes. i have a tons and barrels of plans this sem. as in andami talaga. but still, i have to finalize it and internalize. this is hard.

new skin. i know. papalit palit naman! ahaha. i just love editing! from other people's idea. ahaha!

this sunday, i will be at nayn's party. she's 18! wow. wonder what to wear and what to give. hmmmmm..

15 days to go! twilight na! excited talaga ko!! as in super excited talaga. ahahaha! hindi na ko makatulog. i want to discuss something about twilight sana... kaso my stomach is growling over and over. so i think i better eat muna before ako magdaldal dito! ahaha..

so see you soon. ill be back! :)

recaps!

CARLOS BRIAN'S 18!
oct 29, 2008

we're both 18, dadee! ahaha! 8 more months. happy birthday! love you.

XENN ADRIAN'S FIRST BIRTHDAY :)
oct 31, 2008

can't believe that we had a one-year old already. laki na ni ayla! haha. kumpleto ang nhengsz (for me!) and super saya. ahahaha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDREY!

IMMACTHEO'S POOL PARTY!
nov 2 to nov 3, 2008

sobrang saya ang night with them! nothing beats HIGHSCHOOL! ahahaha. aun, mejo late na kami nagsimula dahil sobrang hintayan ang naganap pero ang matinding rason? "mahaba pa ang gabi." oo nga naman! mahaba pa talaga! kain kain with them. kamayan express ito. the food! grabe. bumaha ng pagkain!

MENU
BBQ - ADOBONG MANOK - KALDERETA - KANIN - SINIGANG (sabaw lang siya actually)
at madaming mdaming chicha.
mawawala ba ang matador? :)

THE GUESTS
immac - me, dhot, nayn, mae, mhean, cathy
theo - jexie, beng, santi, poon, jorge, palo, lean (dumaan lang), leo, santi, ruel, regie

angelo (c/o dhot)

MORE POOL PARTIES TO COME IMMACTHEO!

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NOVEMBER 10
pasukan na!

i dont want this semestral break to end, THAT FAST! haha. masyado akong nag-enjoy ngaung bakasyon na ayaw ko ng pumasok. argh. paperworks na naman. term paper pa! and THEORIES OF PERSONALITY! whatta! i love my course. i love my course. mind over matter nga diba?

I'm MRS. EMMETT CULLEN.

in my dreams! haha! i know na taken na si edward and ayoko naman na makasira ng relasyon kaya si emmett nalang! haha. ECLIPSE na ko! just so you know. haha! kilig ang twilight. mejo hindi ko type ung NEW MOON kasi nagbreak sila and i hate it. eventhough nagbalikan sila, ayoko pa rin.. majority ng nangyari sa NEW MOON, wala si edward! anu ba naman un! i hate it as in super hate it!!

at ayan na, ipapalabas na siya.. sa isang buwan! DUH?! *halata bang naiinis ako?* nag-hyperventilate ako and i can't breathe. ayoko na! ayoko na talaga!

yeah. IM A CERTIFIED TWLIGHTER.

october na!

this will be my first post in my october archive. this semester will be over in two weeks! salamat naman. haru diyos ko. pero bago ata matapos ito ay sobrang pahirap muna ang madadanasan ko! shet. (sorry for the bad languages, but in psychology, it is one of the good outlet of letting go someone's kabadtripan. try it sometimes!)

i will be making a list of whatever things simula ngayon. i want to patch things in order! kasi sobrang magulo ako! whatever.

and my list for this month or this sem.. is HOW TO GET OVER THIS SEMESTER. good thinking people! lol.

1. get over the seminar that you're block will be in-charge of facilitating. hindi ko alam to actually, dahil hindi ako pumasok nung inannounce na magseminar daw kami. haaaay. hindi ko alam!
2. be helpful! at dahil dyan, talent ako ni kuya dave! hindi ko nga alam kung tuloy pa to dahil hindi kami magkita sa school. (pasensya naman, malaki ang school namin.)
3. ang play na hindi ko alam kung magiging play. RETORIKA ito! damn.

THAT'S IT! yun lang pala. kala ko naman andaming naka-line up. PSSS!!

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i've got another list pa!
MY EXPENSES.

1. MY TWILIGHT mania. wala pakielaman. si edward to e!
2. MY HARRY POTTER movie. hindi ko alam kung manunuod pa ko dahil hindi naman ganung kaimportante saken si harry. so baka, si sarah geronimo na lang ang panuorin ko. concert pa un. SAYA
3. EK with someone. haha! baka may magyaya e.. mabuti ng handa! :)
4. BDAY GIFT ko sa jowa ko. bday nia na e.. anu kayang gift?
5. GALA with nhengsz. it's a must kaya kelangan handa ako sa sembreak!

so far. yan pa lang naman.. SO FAR! ewan ko sa mga susunod na araw.

HAY BUHAY

backagain.

hi everyone! (asan?) haha. well well, tagal kong pahinga. and obviously, matagal talaga. busy kasi ako these past few weeks. kasi end na ng semester kaya medyo karir muna sa mga subs ko. ayun nga! busy ako sa lahat ng ginagawa ko, as usual. alangan naman na maging busy ako sa hindi ko ginagawa. DUH

i was so busy these days na hindi ko na naalala yung mga important dates ko sa buhay ko. gosh. first umremembered date: september 13. kuya's bday. he celebrated his 19th na hindi ko man lang naramdaman! well, hindi naman compulsory na andun ako, but the party! i super missed it. may klase kasi ako nun at medyo haggard haggard ako dahil nga pa-finals na. at.. marami nang gawain. instead i greeted him the next day (sept 14). sept. 19. it's my bessie's 18th bday. at medyo nagkulang talaga ko sa kanya. hay naku! sorry jem. soooooori na walang humpay! i greeted her 3 days before her bday naman but the exact date, hindi ko naarok! babawi ako sayo promise! magugulat ka!

kala mo ang dami e nuh! haha. ayan pa naman, for now! at sana yan na lang talaga!

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because may naniniwala sa angkin kong kagalingan sa pagsulat, ay gagawa ako ng isang series na mala-iisa pa lamang ang drama. FANS, plano pa lang to. hindi ko lam kung matutuloy.
PAG nasa mood na ko. hahahah

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sa mga taong chismoso at chismosa naman, lam kong inaabangan niyo ang scoop na ito:
HINDI PA KAMI BREAK! hahahaha. kaya yung mga ewan dyan.. in your dreams dear! hahahah! it was so sudden na nagdecide ako to end up our 3-year relationship last last night. it was a valuable reason to me pero hindi sa ibang tao. i want to keep it to both of us and privately, and i hope everyone did understand that. part yung ng relationship, and im not ashame of anything related to both of us. it was God's plan and not ours.

-emong lara :)

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a perfect guy.

WARNING:
I already have my man. so, epal lang tong post na to. enjoy! :)

A PERFECT GUY for me.

ang girls, naturally in born dramatic. fairy tale-mentality. and of course, romantic! hindi na talaga matatanggal yan. pero, infairness naman saken, hindi ako ganyan nung bandang nagdadalaga na ko, haha! i mean, hindi ako ganun nag-daydream sa mga perfect guy. mr right ever. nung nag-college lang ko. (sssshhh. jowa ko baka andyan.)

nagsimula nung napanuod ko yung, "A WALK TO REMEMBER" ni mandy moore. ang perception ko sa mga BOYFRIEND MATERIAL type of guy, gwapo. and. gwapo. haha! i mean, san ka makakakita sa mantle ng earth ang mga lalaking matalino, gwapo, matangkad, maputi, and bad boy type. nga pla, dream guy ko un. hihi!

the character of shane west sa a walk to remember, grabe. nagising ang ulirat ko nung napanuod ko yun, at infairness, simula nung napanuod ko yun, cguro 2x a day ko siya pinapanuod the following days. what makes LANDON CARTER the perfect guy? hindi pa ba perfect sau ung halos awayin ang mundo dahil kay jamie sullivan? that's insane men!! diba? pinapalit niya ung friends niya just for jamie. haaaay. and, basta. better watch it. kakainlove.

and the second guy i fell the hardest. MICHAEL of it started with the kiss (korean novela). hay nako, pag napapanuod ko itong lalaking ito, hay nako. the typical matalino, and matangkad. gwapo. and super serious type. hay nako! ayoko na! ayoko na siya pag-usapan!

hindi naman ako nagkulang sa pagmamahal sa mga past and my present partner. haha! ang panget, nagkulang.

my 1st boyfriend, is when i was in highschool. 1st year. e2 yung part ng buhay kong nasabi kong, love ako ng sobra ni God. I mean, he gave me the best guy a girl can wish for. super haba ng patience. and sobrang understanding. ndi ko nga ba alam dito kung anu nagustuhan saken. pasenxa wala akong pic. hehe! hindi ko na alam kung nasan siya dahil out of the country siya. pero I am happy for him na rin! kasi natupad niya talaga ung pangarap niya. GO edison. hehe :)

na-share ko lang si edison sa inyo. wala lang, share ko lang :)

and i have my hubby. hay. no words can describe nor can discuss kung anung meron sa amin for 3 good years. we have our fights, small or huge. the bottomline is, kami ngayon. thanks honey, sweetheart, mot-mot, dadee.. for everything :)

realize :)

I have two interviews in one day! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you God! I will definitely give my best shot sa lahat ng mabibigay saken!! I am so freakin' BLESSED!

hair do

for the sake of Paul Louis Casanova. Hindi niya kasi kilala si BLAIR. so, ayan na! cute diba? il make my hair longer muna tsaka ko siya papaganyan. haaay. kahit magkahawig man lang yung makuha ko. kahit hindi na magkamukha! :)

yes, she's mean. but. whew! i love her.

September. Truly memorable.

Last night tragedy test my emotional and mental capability when it comes to danger. Grabe. Hindi talaga ako makatulog sa sobrang tense, kaba. I feel like breaking down. Pero hindi pwede. My bro was depending on me. Eventhough umiiyak na ko, pero hindi naman hagulgol noh! Yung pinsan ko,”Wag kang umiyak. Bakit ka naiyak?”. Lam mu un feeling na, sana himatayin ka na lang para hindi mo na alam yung mga nangyayari sa paligid mo. That’s the feeling na ayoko nang maulit sa tanang ng buhay ko.

Guess nalilito kayo kung bakit. Anu bang nangyari.

Last night, brown out sa compound namin. Due to excessive and extreme rain fall siguro. Meralco decided to turn off the electricity dahil nakidlat and nakulog pa. syempre, kandila fever kami. Nagsimula ung brown out ng 4 or 5 pm. Dahil nanunuod pa ko ng The Buzz tapos biglang black out. Dahil takot ako sa dilim, hindi ako tumayo sa pagkakahiga ko sa sofa namin. Tapos, nakatulog na ko. Nagising ako ng 8 pm dahil siguro nakakaramdam na ko ng gutom and at the same time ng lamig. So I’ve decided na tumayo na and maliwanag naman ang paligid dahil sa nagkalat ang mga kandila na kala mo may honeymoon sa bahay namin. Kumain ako. Hindi ko alam kung nasan ang nanay ko dahil paalis alis siya. Yung papa ko, nasa taas ng bahay namin dahil dun malamig. Pagkatapos ko kumain, humiga ulit ako. Baka sakaling makatulog ako, hindi ko na maalintana ang kainitan at kalamukan ng paligid. Nang hindi ko nasatisfy ang luho ng sarili ko, pumasok ako sa kwarto namin. Hinanap ang portable dvd. Sakto may charge. Naghanap ng mapapanuod, yun.. The Little Mermaid II. Ayos, hindi ko pa to napapanuod. Nanuod ako ng dvd ng mga 15 minutes dahil nalowbat na siya. Kaya no choice kundi mahiga na lang at maghintay ng ilaw. Humiga ako katabi ang kapatid kong bunso. Maya maya hindi ako mapakali. Lumabas ako, nakain palang sila mama tsaka papa. Nakipagkwentuhan muna ako.

Eto na. Sumigaw na si Ate Lea, “SUNOG SUNOG!” hala. Nung una hindi ko pa naabsorb. Sumilip ako sa likod ng bahay namin, nasusunog yung bahay nila daddy. Sobrang laki ng apoy. Buong bahay na yung nilalamon ng apoy. Sa sobrang panic ko, hindi ko natawag yung kapatid ko na nasa kwarto na katabing katabi lang ng nasusunog na bahay, nakuha ko pa ngang magtsinelas dahil sabi ng mama ko, lumabas daw kami. Ang hindi ko maintindihan, maleta ni papa ang pinadala saken. Naisip ko, wala akong damit na dala. Yung cellphone ko nasa loob. Tawagan ko si musni. Wala akong pera. Nakalabas ako ng bahay na puro pasa yung katawan ko. Puro bounce ang natamo ko palabas dahil yung mga nagpapatay ng apoy, walang awa akong binubunggo. Tinatawag ko yung kapatid ko dahil alam ko na nasa labas na siya. Nakarating kami ng labasan, wala pala siyang tsinelas. Ang nasabi niya lang saken, “ate, ang sakit ng paa ko. Wala akong tsinelas.” Binigay ko yung tsinelas ko sa kanya. Grabe. Kung makikita ninyo ko nung moment na yun. Hindi niyo maiisip na ako si Lara. Ang dumi dumi ng damit ko. Amoy kanal ako dahil bago kami makalabas ng kapatid ko sa labasan ay mga 10 balde na may laman na tubig kanal ang pinanligo ko. Instant ligo naman e. Aminin ko sa inyo, umiiyak the whole time. Nararamdaman ko yung nginig ng kapatid ko sa sobrang takot. Nararamdaman ko yung hikbi ng kapatid ko sa sobrang pinipigil yung iyak niya. Wala akong lakas nung mga oras na yun. Feeling ko, mahihimatay na ko. Dala ko pa yung pinsan kong 2 years old dahil nasa loob pa ng bahay nila yung kapatid niyang natutulog. Hindi makuha ng nanay niya dahil natataranta rin. Ilang sandali lang, sinabi saken ng kapit bahay namin na, umuwi na nga daw kami dahil patay na yung apoy. Isipin ninyo ako, may dalang maleta. May bitbit na bata. at nakapaa. Basang basa. At sobrang dumi. Grabe. Baka ampunin ninyo ko sa sobrang awa. Pagkabalik ko sa bahay, may narinig ako, “si lara? Nasan si lara?” hindi ko na sabihin kung sino. Pero, natouch ako sa ginawa niya. Hindi ko alam pero napaisip ako bigla. Pagkakita niya saken, binuhat niya agad yung maletang dala ko. Sabi niya, “Doon tayo. Bat wala kang tsinelas? Kumuha ka ng tsinelas dun.” Sabi ko nalang sa kanya, “Ayos lang ako. Asus tsinelas lang e.” May sakit siya nun. Lumabas siya ng bahay kasi akala niya samen bahay yung nasusunog. Natakot daw siya bigla baka masunog ako. Lokoloko. Thank you ha. Salamat talaga.

Hay. Madami akong narealize dun sa nangyari na yun. Nakita ko kung paano ka-caring ang mga kapitbahay ko. Dahil simula pa lang nung apoy, kanya kanyang balde agad yung bitbit nila. At dahil malaking bahay yung nasusunog, ginawa nilang park yung bubong namin. Kung maglakad sila kala mo, hindi bubungan yung tinatakbuhan nila. Hindi na nila inintindi yung mga gamit nila, basta ang mahalaga.. mapatay nila yung apoy.

Kaya. Proud ako na dito ako nakatira.

heroes' trivia

may hangover pa kasi ako sa basic eco namin. kaya kahit kaunti ay mag-share ako ng mga natutunan ko sa prof kong.. never mind.

trivia #1.
ANTONIO LUNA.
hindi siya real friend. remember, isa siya sa mga circle of friends ni rizal. yes. sa sobrang close nila, para na silang brothers. pero hindi naisusulat sa ating mga libro na.. SIYA ang primary witness kaya nabaril si rizal sa bagumbayan. siya ang punong saksi kaya nahatulan si rizal. i hate him naaaa..

trivia #2.
PEDRO A. PATERNO
remember na nagkapost ako tungkol sa aking lolo na si apolinario mabini. na may nagkalat tungkol sa kanya na sobrang mean na chismis. si pedro paterno ang may sala nun! kasama si paterno sa hall of traitors sa ating history. isa siya sa mga taksil! taksil!
(si paterno ang 1st president of the congress sa malolos. remember the malolos constitution?)

trivia #3.
MANUEL L. QUEZON
first president ba natin to? haha. basta siya. duwag daw siya sabi ng prof ko. dahil sa kainitan ng gera dito sa atin ay umeskapo itong si pareng manny papuntang australia. hindi pa nakontento, nag-trip to new york pa! ayun. todas. tigok. chugi.

trivia #4.
JUAN LUNA
hindi sinabi sa kasaysayan na pinatay ni juan luna ang kanyang asawa at biyenan. eto ang chismis. seloso daw kasi tong si pareng juan. isang araw, uminit ang dugo niya kay kumareng ever. ayun! nag-away sila. nagtago si mare sa kwarto kasama ang kanyang ina. ayun. nagkulong! bumaril si pareng juan sa door knob, sakto naman na andun si mare at ang kanyang mudra! ayun. binggo. tinamaan. tsk tsk. very brutal.

hindi ko alam kung totoo ang mga ito. hahah! malay ko ba! at least nagshare ako diba?

post?

haaay. tagal ko na naman magpost ulet! haaay! honestly, andami kong gustong ikwento sa inyo guys. pero dahil matagal ang ritwal ko bago ako magpost.. nawala na ng tuluyan lahat!

ritwal ni lara bago makasulat ng isang post sa blog.

anu nga ba? haha! wala naman akong maikwento wala! anu ba yan!

hmmm.. hmm.. hmmmm.. isip.

eto na lang.

1) Do you think you're mature?

hindi in some ways. hindi ako mature mag-isip when it comes to studies, honestly. feeling ko highschool pa lang din ako (eventhough im in my college years na). ewan ko kung bakit ganun. siguro, kasi hinayaan ko na lumaki ako ng ganun. na pa-pechay pechay lang! pero, im trying to change that kind of mentality naman. super sinusubukan ko. and it's killing me. pero, in other kind of things naman, mature ako. sa lovelife. sa family. sa friends.

2) Have you kissed somebody in the last week?

yes. every day. eventhough hindi kami schoolmates, we see to it na nagkikita kami at least 4 to 5 times a week. pero para sa aken, hindi pa rin enough yun. hahah! nasanay kasi ako na everyday kami magkasama. soooo, ayun! so yes i definitely kissed someone last week :)

3) Who was the last persons house you went to besides your own?

sarah's. nhengsz had a little get together kasi. so, ayun. it was fun and.. basta! hahah!

4) Miss someone?

i miss everybody! nhengsz. immac. theo. jhea. kat. jhe. julie. dami. grabe.

5) What’s on your mind?

dami din! hahah! midterms. probee stuff. research group. how i can spend my semestral break. haha! excited ako. pasko! :)

6) Is there something you could’ve done to make your last relationship work?

last relationship. actually, wala na rin siguro. it was meant to be. and besides, masaya na kami ni lean sa mga buhay buhay namin. and that's good.

7) Do you like someone right now?

i LOVE someone right now :)

8) Listening to music?

no. it's 1:42 in the morning na my dear. everybody are sleeping na.

9) What are you doing tomorrow?

go to class. and.. chem. arrrgh.

10) Anything annoying you right now?

retorika stuff. ayoko talaga ng filipino subject. haaaay.

11) Favorite colors?

yellow. brown.

12) What did you do last night?

katext ko si hubby hanggang 2 am. maaga kami natapos mag-usap kasi may klase ako. kaya ayun.

13) Who did you ride in a car with last besides your family?

maine. westgate galore kami.

14) What’s the color of you’re shirt you are wearing?

beige.

15) Do you want to hug someone?

definitely. forever.

16) Have you been outside today?

yup. gone to school today. and for the first time! maliwanag pa lang nakauwi na ko! cheers!

17) The last text you received on your cell was from?

sister. pauwi na daw siya.

18) Last movie you watched?

for the first time. napapadalas ang pagnuod ko ng tagalog movies ha!

19) Happy?

define happy. hehe. yes. im happy and contented. happy with my friends. happy with my family. happy with school. and happy with him. eveything is at their right place. i can't wish for more.

20) Who/What made you upset today?

antiporta <- professor.

21) Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?

dati, mga 2 years ago! haha. dati.. when we have the time in the world pa ng aking irog.. pag tumigil kami sa isang lugar like magpapahinga, lagi siyang nakanta for me.. kahit anong trip niya kantahin. and before. (ngayon kasi madalang na) when we have this huge fight, iyakin kasi ako.. afte nung away namin or simpleng pinaiyak niya ko, he always sings "huwag ka ng umiyak".. i can't remember yung singer pero male siya ang medyo luma na.. ahhh! yung kumanta ng "huwag na lang kaya".. hmmmm.. TRUE FAITH! sooo nice music. better listen to it..

22) If you could fix things with anyone who would it be and why?

wala. i don't have to fix things. kasalanan nila yun. hindi ako.

23) What should you be doing right now?

matulog. may class ako bukas. my goodness.

24) Do you get along with your parents?

yes. parang barkada lang. pero we have our limitations din.

25) Whats the car of your dreams?

a two door mazda. or a chevrolet camaro. darn.

26) Ever wanted to be a teacher?

haha! as if! pero once! hahah..

27) What do your cousins call you?

malandi. maxene ( no joke to.) laringring. laring.

28) First thing you notice in the opposite sex?

nose. haha! wan ko ba. siguro kasi hindi ako napalaan ng mgandang ilong. hahah!

29) Favorite physical feature on yourself?

hmmmm.. lips. twice na nagsabi kasi sa akin na, cute daw ng lips ko. hahah! uto uto naman ako :)

30) Do you currently hate someone?

hate is a understatement my dear.

31) What do you do for fun?

kumain. blog. cabal. very productive ha?

32) Are you sarcastic?
not most of the time.

see.. may post na ko..

patience is a virtue.

have you ever thought of something na gustong gusto niyo pero somewhat hindi pwede. yung urge na makuha yun ang nag-eencourage sayo na go for gold ka. naaaku! i have the same syndrome with you kung sino ka man na nakakarelate. hehehe :)

dati kasi, way back in highschool, dun ko lang naappreciate ang meaning ng barbie. yes, barbie as in toy. dati kasi nung elementary ako, dedma ako sa dolls. wa epek yan saken kung gaano siya kaganda o kung gano kahaba ang buhok niya. basta ako, may manika ako. period. pero nung nag-high school ako, tapos nakita ko yung bratz ( yung mga manika na hindi proportional ang ulo sa katawan at sobrang laki ng mata) super nagpabili agad ako nun sa papa ko. pero dahil feeling niya masyado na kong matanda para sa manika, hindi niya ko binili. yes, tragic moment ko yun sa buhay ko. pero hindi pa rin ako nawalan ng pag-asa. nung second year high school ako, pumunta kami ng MOA ata o SM southmall, basta SM yun! tapos nakita ko sa toy kingdom yung isang bratz, si chloe. actually, ayoko talaga sa kanya kasi common yung itsura niya for a doll,like blonde hair. so nung una ayoko, gusto ko si jasmine. (if gusto niyo or alam niyo ung bratz, makakarelate kayo.) jasmine is the neggy girl. pero maganda. soooo, kasama ko ang aking butihing ama, e di pili pili na ko, feeling ko kasi bibili niya ko, tapos sabi ko na lang.. "pa, eto saken oh." o diba walang palag! nasa counter na e! heheh.

na-share ko lang! pero with regards sa title nung posts ko, patience. patience. patience. don't rush things and don't push others to change overnight.

don't rush things. don't push things that aren't supposed to be pushed. maghintay. and if God blessed it to you then it will come. kaya ko to nasasabi is just for a simple reason. I DON'T HAVE ANY PATIENCE, DATI. BUT, YOU SEE.. I LEARNED. i like to rush things. yung tipong kahit hindi pa dadating, il find a way para makarating na. hapit ba kumbaga. but then, i understand the lesson about patience. gaano man kahaba ang hinihintay mo, pero once na dumating sayo un, IT'S ALL WORTH IT.

don't push others to change overnight. if kaibigan mo ko, aminado ako, isa ako sa pinaka-pakielamerang tao sa buhay mo. heheh. feeling ko kasi, once you realize na mali ka, kinabukasan, santo ka na. im sorry pero ganun talaga. pero, naisip ko na din naman na mali yun. (simula nung nag-psych ako.) mali in a way na, realization is not that real sa inaakala mo. realization is just calculation of your mind depende sa mga actions mo. you can realize your actions on your own not by the do's of others. pero keep in mind na it's you who can change yourself. hindi ang ibang tao.

breaking free..

what's with the title?
yesterday, august 20 2008, we celebrated our 3rd year together. yes, it was fun. simple lang yung celebration but it was goooood.

everyday, lagi kong tinatanong yung sarili ko na.. what if one day.. wala na siya sa akin? it was awkward pero kasi think realistic diba? kahit ano, pwedeng mangyari.. and pag naiisip ko na, hindi ko na kayang ituloy.. parang ang hirap kasi. parang hindi ko.. kaya.

you have to start your day na hindi mo siya maiisip.
wala ka ng hihintayin na texts from him.
wala ka ng dadaanan sa pc shop just to kiss him. *kasi nagagalit siya pag hindi ko siya dinadaanan, so.. yes it's compulsory.*
hindi ka na maiinis pag hindi siya nagrereply.
hindi ka na magagalit pag hindi siya pumunta.
hindi ka na mag-iisip ng idadahilan everytime na late ka ng uwi.
hindi ka na maglalaro ng cabal kasi naglalaro din siya.
hindi ka na pupunta ng markville kasi naalala mo siya.
hindi ka na rin kakain sa KFC kasi lalong maalala mo siya. h
indi ka na magfriendster kasi halos lahat ng friends mo, friend din niya.
wala ka ng hihintayin tuwing wednesdays and mondays kasi wala ka ng pasok nun, at talagang wala kang gagawin.
hindi ka na makakaipon kasi siya ang nagtatago ng pera mo dahil magastos ka.
wala ng magbabago ng kanta sa ipod mo kundi ikaw na lang.
wala ng magmamasahe ng ulo mo tuwing nasakit.
wala ka ng ipagluluto sa gabi at mag-isa ka na lang kumain.
hindi ka na makakapunta ng inuman dahil alam mong lagi siyang present.

marami pa sana kaso ayoko na sabihin.. secret na namin un! :)
ang sarap sarap ng feeling ng inlove. as in. lalo na when give and take ung relationship niyo, naku! ang sarap mabuhay. heheh. lahat naman tayo, pwede maging ganun ung lovelife. kailangan lang, ingatan niyo ang isa't isa..

toodles :)