first post.. again.

first post ko na naman. haha. as you can see i created a new blog again. i deleted all my blogs last summer. wala naman kasi akong maikwento and at the same time, tinamad ako. kaya ngayon na pasukan ulit, naghanap ako ng new blogsite na pwede ko ulit pagdiskitahan. and i found this! malas lang. hehe. now im breaking the tradition na walang topic sa first post. ngayon, meron na! =)
today's topic. life. at dahil emotionally stable ako at the moment, makakapg-emote ako tungkol sa buhay ko.
im contented na sa life ko as of the moment. ayoko na kasi na hassle na everyday life. yung tipong kahit wala dyan, pinipilit mo pa rin na magkaron ka. and the end of it.. manghihinayang ka lang na ginawa mo yun. sabi nga nila, nsa huli ang pagsisisi. im contented in a way na, gusto ko ganto na lang siya. na sana walang mabago. for the better man niyan o ano. selfish ako in a way na ayokong maging complicated ang buhay ko sa mga upgrades na mangyayari. immature thinking ika nga. pero immature ba ang nag-iisip ng assurance para huwag ma-complicate ang buhay ko? if that's the case. im immature.

next. love. syempre hindi mawawala =)
if not so anybody knows.. im attached with my guy for almost 3 years now. first reaction, wow. bihira lang ba ang tumatagal na relationship ngaun? hehe. in every relationship, syempre there are things, sometimes people for you to get stronger and sweeter and.. makes you think wider. sabi nga nila, trust and honesty makes a relationship lasts a lifetime. trust? i slightly disagree. lemme tell you a story about one of our major fight at the past years. natural lang daw sa lalaki ang magloko. natural in a simple reason na.. "lalaki lang kami." know what i mean? and i think that explains kung ano ang cause ng away namin. there's a girl involved ang she was my friend of mine. during that time, when i found out that fcukinshit, syempre normal feeling of a girlfriend. nagalit. to both of them. i cried so hard and i cried every night. we didnt break up. but the thought na nagawa niya saken yun, enough na yun to make my world collapsed. we didnt have a confrontation. and my boyfriend didnt want to talk about it. and i was cool with that. kasi the more na malaman ko, baka magpakamatay na ko. that issue passes by.. and passed by. what i want to tell is. until now, my boyfriend knows. i didnt trust him until now simula nung nangyari. loving is such a mundane idea in a relationship. but trust and loyalty. tsk tsk tsk. yan dapat ang hindi nawawala!
you cant love the person that you cant trust. as they say.

wah! 2 am na pala. ive got to go =)
bukas ulit.